dagnabbit...

I missed Grey's Anatomy last night...

Oooooooooooh well. I had fun with a couple friends last night. :)

too much time...

You think you know someone...

Everyday she smiles, and the world sees her as a happy person, carefree and easygoing. Until...

someone makes her angry...

So she heads out on a mission: to assasinate an unexpecting someone. Of course no one knows her true mission...

BUT

Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! She doesn't know that Destri knows!

Tee Hee!!!

(the end)

Destri's so wise and kind. Everyone needs a Des. :)

on another note, the only American Idol judge who's being honest tonight is Simon...

either that or he's the only one who can really recognize talent...

and there isn't any (talent) tonight

and witty comebacks from the contestants are never that witty... morons...

Once again, I feel the not-so-pleasant effects from my physical therapy session...

Maybe it's bc I chose not to have her tape me up today.... but I didn't want the tape bc last time, it felt like the tape was only contributing towards the pain...

The good news is that my arm isn't as shaky as before. Maybe this is the kind of sore that it's supposed to be after physical therapy.... it's not the same shooting pain....

Although.. I can feel my bone shift into the wrong spot every now and then.... not to mentioin the tingling sensation in my fingers....

I'm in such a bad mood.

Chinese Lunar New Years Day

Great day yesterday! Started out with trying to sleep in, didn't work out so well considering the shoulder wasn't having it... so I "slept in" til about 7:30 a.m. Meaning, I reluctantly crawled out of bed at that time. The next few hours of the day were spent trying to figure out what I wanted for breakfast and talking to my parents... browsed on the internet.. popped in a couple DVDs into the system... and after staring blankly at the television, fell asleep again. Woke up, and then talked to Bing for awhile! Yaaaaay. It's been so long since I've talked to him. :)

I spent the evening/night with San et al, and it was fantastic! I had so much fun. I haven't seen a lot of people in what feels like nearly forever. San, Kim, Christopher, etc. are just like family to me. :) So I don't think I could have spent my day better!

Plus, Mollie's back and it's been awhile since I've seen her. Now I have someone I can watch Thai/Thai-dubbed movies with! :)

Oh, it was such a great night! We all talked about whatnot, discussed musicians/bands for the upcoming festival, laughed a lot, caught up... etc etc.

And then there was a whole, entire hodge podge of musicians there! And they were all jamming out in the basement. From 12 yr-old to...ehm... not sure how much older (maybe middle-age?), they were singing and playing guitars and creating music... It's been so long since I've been able to just sit and listen to people strumming away. It was fantastic.

Oh, and I got three hugs last night. Good way to start the new year, right? :)

One other thing, someone asked if I wanted to sing with them sometime with their jazz band. Doesn't that sound like fun? I've never done jazz before, but I'm excited. Yaaay! :)

Yesterday morning I went into my physical therapy session feeling pretty good, and then I left feeling semi-well.

We sonogrammed my scaline muscle, which was (in theory) not supposed to affect my shoulder. (The last time we sonogrammed it, my shoulder flared up really bad.) Then we taped it up. An hour later, while I was at work, my shoulder started to feel funny... so I had to loosen the tape (with the help of a friend... can't reach where the tape starts). And then a couple hours later it started to burn again. I don't think I'm going to do the sonogram thing anymore... I think my body hates it.

Anyway, I was worn out by the end of the day... especially because I was apprehensive of what the next day (today) would bring.... because, to be honest, I'm scared of being in more pain again. The last time it flared up, it was just traumatic.

On another note, Destri sent me an email that made me chuckle. You'd never guess what her alarm clock sounds like in the morning.... hahahahahaha... Thanks, Des!!! :)

stream of conciousness

It's been a while since I last wrote... I know, I have no real excuse for not writing. Since I last wrote anything.. hmmm.. let's see.. in late November, I slipped and fell.. resulting in shoulder issues since then. It's been a bit of a rollercoaster ride... 2.5 months of emotionally draining moments... and plenty of pain along the way. There was a time my physical therapist and I both thought I was making progress, and then suddenly everything took a bit of a nose dive... and I found myself in excruciating pain... had a few nights of absolute despair and tears... other nights found me extremely irritable... but most nights too tired to do much of anything. Several times I tried to stay positive, put things into perspective... but it's hard to patient and positive when pain rules how you get through the day... and you can only put things into perspective so many times before you get leary of finding new ways to see the cup half full. As of this week, I've been feeling better... happier about being in less pain... hoping for the best (that I'm finally on the road to recovery), yet at the same time, knowing that it could get worse... like last time.

Good thing... we took it easy at my last physical therapy session... and today I wasn't in more pain than normal.... not like how it's been the past few weeks. I'm still popping painkillers and icing the crap out of my shoulder (to the most enjoyable feeling of cold numbness).

Anyway, I'm not blogging today to complain. Just update. See... mass emails seem to be so impersonal... blogging is probably even more impersonal, but this is for my friends... so my goal is to be a little better about keeping this puppyupdated... as I'm not always the greatest at keeping in touch as of late... especially when I know that I'll have to repeat myself to more than one person... and with my shoulder/arm acting the way it's been, I can only bear to be on my computer (sitting in one position) for so much time before I need to reposition for comfort.

Other than that... life is good. Work has been extremely busy, and I'm loving it. Sometimes it's hard to concentrate because I have to retrieve the good old ice pack and reposition and all of the above mentioned stuff, but it's okay. I've got projects to work on, and it's great. :) My boss is absolutely wonderful. She's the greatest. I love working with her. The other folks in the region are great to work with as well. I love my company. :)

I think I'm going to visit my big brother in Pheonix this year. I'm pretty excited because I haven't seen him in forever!!! It'll be great fun. I wish I could afford to go while it was still cold here... I hate this dreadful, biting, cold weather. Anyway, this is going to be a good year. :)

I'm thinking about visiting Abi this year too... we'll see what my funds allow for...

Oh and my friend Dawn is getting married in April. :) She's so great! I'm so excited for her. :) She deserves wonderful, wonderful things.

Today's Valentines Day. It's such a cute holiday. I wonder... does love change people?